I said I love you but I lied. I stopped loving you almost four years ago. I don't even love you as a friend anymore. I never thought this days would come but it has. I am sorry but I can't change it. I have forgotten what it is like to love you. Still Happy Birthday.

My sister and I planned to hang out yesterday.

She flaked on me saying that she and her bf have been fighting for two weeks and she was hanging out with her friend.


I'm sick of her flaking for everything. She didn't show up for Christmas. Or Thanksgiving. She didn't get ready on time to take me to see Conan. She missed Reese's FIRST birthday and was 3 hrs late for Carlie's. All because she and her boyfriend get into fights.

She's just like mom.

I really want to apologize for my thoughts lately, but I don't know how to tell him that I am sorry without worrying him in the first place.

"Hey, hon, I really want to apologize for thinking about my ex so much and bringing him up all the time. It's just that I miss him a lot and this is a tough time of year in which he always was the star of the show (even when we were friends). So yeah, no big. Just wanted to say sorry!"

Not gonna cut it, methinks.

I'm friends with all 4 of the siblings of family K on Myspace. I'm friends with all 3 of the siblings of family N on Facebook. I feel accomplished when I'm friends with all the siblings of a family on social networking sites, like I'm "collecting" them haha.

I cried harder over my fish's death than my grandfather's.

I want to make out & have some sweet lovin' with someone while "Cruisin'" by Smokey Robinson plays! That would be.. awesome.

if i could have any power right now,
it would be that i could make myself stop missing him.

I posted something about how when I first met my boyfriend, I thought he was gay.
WELL
I read a blog of his from 2006, stating he was interested in men. We met in 2008.
I'm sorry...but you can't change. You really cant. And I'm not attracted to him anymore.


Someone parked behind my car, to the point where they were an inch away from my bumper. I left a sign on their windshield that said "Nice park job, douchebag." I've never felt more liberated.

He's just gonna break my heart in the end.

But I don't have the guts to let him go.

My heart doesn't have an "OFF" switch.  Once I love someone, I always love that person no matter what transpires.

I was never angry with you when you killed yourself.  I carry part of you in my heart.  Sometimes I talk to that part of you and I hope that you hear me.  I wish I knew for sure.  It has been so many years now, I'm certain that I will love you and miss you until my dying day.

If only you had realized how much you meant to me and how much I cared about you.  How much I did love you.  Everyone else in the world, including your family, seems to have moved on and forgotten you.

I will never forget you, D.  Never, never, never.

I felt so used today.

I don't care about anything anymore.

I am decidedly ~childfree.

I thought of having his baby one day, and it made me feel warm inside.

This is definitely a first.

I don't want to be alive sometimes.

Sometimes a lot.

I wished death on someone today, and I meant it, from the very bottom of my heart.
I've never met the person, nor have I researched their life,
but I refuse to take it back. I do not feel guilty, I will not feel guilty.



Abusing animals is fucking wrong.


I hope you rot in hell.

To the person who doesn't believe I have an eating disorder, I just feel like saying.. 'Watch me shrink.'
Everytime I see them, I just want to talk to them I guess, but then a subtle anger takes over.. Watch me shrink.. Spins around in my head.
I''m losing weight now. Only a matter of time before I get to my goal. When I reach it, I don't actually care if  you think I look 'fit again', or whether you think I'm fat, or even if you worry about me, but for you not to believe me when I tell you the secret which means most in the whole world to me, then it shows, I don't need you in my life anymore. I was right, I don't really know you.

Look up the lyrics to "Stella" by All Time Low.

I often laugh to my friends on how thats basically the soundtrack of my life.
...no. Really. I don't tell them how serious I am about it.

I AM only happy when I'm wasted.

So why would I want to stop drinking?